Day 2

Day 2: 177lbs, UH WHAT? I swear this is true folks. How it happened I have NO IDEA! Does HCG just melt the fat away? It kind of feels like it!

so Day 1: BMI 29.2 (over 29.9 is obese)
Day 2 BMI: 28.6

I am going to try to add to the post a few times a day then post at night. That way we can avoid 10 posts a day :)

Morning:
I am not tired. I have energy. Actually I have more energy than normal. I am so confused by all of this.

Today I woke up feeling great. I had coffee, about a cup of cucumber and a slice of tomato for breakfast. I felt full and still had energy.

Afternoon:
For lunch I had 100 grams of tuna with a few drops of yellow mustard. I scooped the tuna up with melba toast and chowed down. It was YUMMY! I also had a granny smith apple. I was full and still have energy. I feel like I am hitting an afternoon slump though so a cup of coffee with a stevia packet is in my future.

Evening:

I went to the grocery store this afternoon to pick up some more variety. Oh man did I want to eat everything in sight! Not because I was hungry but because I WANTED too. I did not feel like I needed to eat at all. I just felt like those boneless chicken wings that my daughter got smelled so good. I actually took one of the wings, put it in my mouth and chewed it up and spit it out. Gross I know. My intentions at first were to eat it but as I was chewing it I began to gag. I am not sure if that is due to the HCG or my total disgust with myself for wanting to cheat on the 2nd flippin' day.

Like for real? day 2 and trying to cheat? I am so disappointed in myself. My complete obsession with food is really becoming apparent with this diet. I think about food all the time. AGAIN I am NOT hungry AT ALL. I don't even walk to the fridge or pantry and think of grabbing something. I just think about food, a lot. I think about my next meal more than anything. I really don't know why and I hope I stop soon because it is liable to drive me mad. I did this before the diet quite often but not near as much as I do now. It is really embarrassing to admit it but there ya go. It has been a long time coming to actually admit it and maybe if I would have admitted it sooner I would not be in this place now.

Dinner went well. I was not all that impressed with my salad that I made though.
it was made with spinach which I was excited about but then I bought these frozen salad shrimps. Um, yuck. They tasted like fishy shrimp. I know that does not make sense but you know what I mean right?
ok moving on.
The salad consisted of 70 grams spinach. 30 grams tomatoes, 100 grams shrimp and lemon juice. I think it could have been good if the shrimp was not so blah.

It was satisfying but not my favorite. I drank a big 'ol cup of water, cleaned the house and played tag with the kids. I thought for sure I would be exhausted after playing tag but NOPE I felt GREAT! I am just so amazed at how great I am feeling from this. It just does not even seem right. I am usually very hungry when I diet. I usually cut my calories to 1100 when dieting and if I work out then I give myself an extra 300 calories to make 1400. When I do that I feel starved. How in the hell am I only eating around 500 calories and feel GREAT?

We went about our evening and around 11:15 I got a little hunger pang. Nothing serious though. I got a drink of water and went to bed. I was worried that I might toss and turn thinking about food but I did not, I went right to sleep and slept all through the night. It was great!

Funny stuff:

Day 1

Day one: 181 lbs

Today is my first day of the HCG diet. I am going to document my diet through this blog, if I don't eat the computer first. There may be days that I blog 3-4 times, depending on what I feel like I can add.

First a little about me. I am a mother of 4 so I have a husband and 4 kids to feed besides myself, that is where I feel like the challenge will come in for me. When I got pregnant with my first child (7 years ago) I weighed about 130. I am 5 foot 6 and very well endowed in the chest area ;) 130 for me was actually VERY small. If I ever gained 1 pound over 130 it was all in my belly, and this is BEFORE children. Now that I have birthed 3 children (one was adopted) my belly fat is outta control. I gained A LOT of weight with pregnancy number 1 and I have had a really hard time shaking it since then. I have not been under 158 since. I have tried shaking this weight the right way and I am just wore out. I have a lot going on all the time and finding time to workout everyday is WAY easier said than done!!!! With the support of my husband and family I figure 30 days out of my life is worth it to see if this HCG thing works.

My goal on this diet is to lose 15 lbs. I would like to lose 40 total but I would like to do this diet for 30 days, lose 15 lbs and then pick up and do it the right way.

What is the right way you ask? Oh you know, you just don't want to face it, I know I don't. When I say right way I mean good 'ol diet and exercise. The only tried and true way to lose the weight and keep it off.
So onto the diet.....

I started my "fill up" day on Saturday. I had a migraine and did not do so well with it. I tried to eat high fat, high calorie food but I just did not feel good. I probably ate 1,500 calories or so though.
The same went for Sunday- I was still recovering from my migraine but I force fed myself pizza and cookie cake. For some reason I did not even feel like eating. I am not sure if it was the drops or if it was the migraine recovery. Either way I was FORCING myself to eat.

I went to bed last night thinking, "Oh my, I should of had some ice cream before bed since I won't get to eat for a month." I feel like I am doing a lot of thinking about food. Almost obsessing about it.
I woke up, took my drops and set my timer for 30 minutes. As soon as the timer went off I poured myself a cup of coffee and added 2 packets of Stevia to it. I usually have milk and french vanilla in my coffee so this was a big change for me. I ended up liking it a lot better than I thought I would!! I am actually counting on coffee to get me through this diet. Sad I know.

So I was not really hungry and decided to wait on my breakfast. Around 10:30 I started to feel a little jittery. I chopped up the biggest apple in the bowl and chowed down. A few minutes later I decided to go with a grissini bread stick as well. They seemed to satisfy me. During all of this I am chugging water, which I normally do anyway.

Lunchtime came around and I was so excited to eat something of substance. I took my drops and I cooked up 100 grams of chicken and 100 grams of spinach with some all purpose seasoning. While I was cooking it I was looking at it with a gleam in my eye. I was so excited. When I went to spoon the mixture onto my plate I thought about letting the pan cool down and licking it. I am not kidding. I really thought about licking a pan.
I grabbed my water and headed to the kitchen table. I sat down to eat and "blah". It was SO TASTY but I just did not feel hungry. I felt like I had to force myself to eat it. There was no way I was skipping a meal when I only get 500 calories a day though. I was told this could happen so I was prepared. It took me about an hour but I finished it. I felt completely satisfied with my meal and I actually felt full.

I drank a ton more water, went about my afternoon and then came dinner.

Dinner has been the most worrisome for me. I have thought about it over and over in my head. What was I going to do while preparing dinner for my family??/Would I chew gum? Would I hold a spoon in my mouth? I was so scared that I would grab just one mini corn dog or one bite of mac and cheese. Would you believe that I did not even WANT to take a bite? They do not get that stuff on a regular basis but when they do, I want it! I love me some corn dogs. Instead I made their plates up, brought it to the table and went back to the stove to finish cooking my meal. On the Menu? 100 grams of chicken, 100 grams of broccoli  and a Melba toast. I used the all purpose seasoning again and it was delish! I had the same issue with dinner as I did with lunch though. I really had no desire to eat it. I felt like I could go without but again, 500 calories people! I was not going without.

After dinner I felt full. I almost felt bloated.

My mood was great, I did not have a headache and I was full. I have to be doing something wrong. There is no way my hungry self is FULL!!!!

We went to our nightly activities, I drank water, talked to others about the diet and came on home. I still had one fruit left on the menu for the day. Even though I was not hungry I decided to go ahead and eat it. I again picked the largest apple in the bowl and sliced 'er up. I chowed down on that apple like a pregnant woman eating chocolate cake. THEN I felt full. I felt like I had eaten a chocolate cake for real. I was so full and bloated!

HOW IS THIS HAPPENING???? I really want to know. Like how is this hungry mama feeling full? I just don't get it. Whatever though. Even if I lose 5 lbs this week on this and go back to eating normal again, I am happy. I am full and happy.